It's not easy

Lately i feel as if I've been torn apart. Literally torn up and fed to the wolves. I feel like my husband and i are on one side of the fence facing a bunch of people who don't believe in us anymore. this year has not been easy. last year was not easy. i have no idea what to do anymore when it comes to how we are going to live. don't get me wrong, i am still absolutely in love with my man. I just feel like things financially will never change. do we move? are we stuck in Utah forever? do i just start having kids and give up my dream? am i a bad Mormon for not wanting a child right now? or not seeing the 'big picture' because i feel that the Lord hasn't been there for us? I'm sure no one will see this, nor even care. but if anyone out there feels the way that i do give me a shout out or some words of wisdom because I'm pretty sure that the 'deep pit of despair' I'm in is not going to change without some form of intervention. til then...

Meh...I need to better

Alright Blogger Lindsay,

You can do this. How hard can it be to blog about your life? The thing is: I don't feel that my life is that interesting to write about, other than the fact that it's blatently obvious no one views this thing in the first place.
I mean, we all secretly write these things hoping people read it in order to find us brilliant or interesting enough. And I guess...I'm just not that interesting.
But I really do want to record my general thoughts and ideas. I guess this is as good as it gets.
Right now, I should be studying for my utah history mid term. Instead I'm eating leftover cafe rio and watching ed do the dishes. I love him. I hate dish duty. But on the bright side I do love lavender scented dish soap, so sometimes I appreciate doing the dishes.
Another thing that is bothering me right now is my feet. I just got back from Anything Goes rehearsal where we were just choreographing the main number of the show. i love it. its' brilliant. absolutely stunning. And my feet freaking hurt!

Other good news: my friend BreAnne finally just got engaged to her boyfriend of forever, AJ.
congrats to them.

My friend Ashley who I met through a mutal friend Jimmy, is getting married this weekend. Best wishes to them. P.s. I'll be in SLC this weekend auditioning for the Neil Simon Festival.

Anywho, time to sign off because procrastination really will get me no where. and also it's not like anyone is going to read the dern thing anyways.

tootles.


linds

Starting Over

OK...so once upon a time I was trying to create a new background for my blog, and I happened to be in the depths of real orneriness at the moment and just deleted the whole thing. Yea...Irish temperaments are never really a good thing.
Anyway...


This is my attempt at starting over, and hopefully my temper will be channelled into a more positive place.

Right now I have "Moon river" stuck in my head (hence the name of the blog) and I can't help but dwell on the lyrics. Sentimentality is kinda my thing at the moment. But here they are:

Moon River, wider than a mile,

I'm crossing you in style someday,

O Dream Maker, You heart breaker,

Wherever you're going, I'm going your way.

Two Drifters off to see the world, there's such a lot of world to see.

We're after the same rainbows end,

Waiting round' the bend,

My huckleberry friend, Moon river and Me.

Well...

Now that I'm up to speed with my blog (well...now I'm just getting lazy and want to sign off) I hope to be in touch more often.

-Linds